Bliss List Item # 10

Private jokes.

A.M. Radio

This song is just plain fun, especially if you are near my age.

Bliss List Item # 9

Bliss List Item # 9 . . . When one specific person’s laugh has the power to make you feel hugged . . .

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Please Forgive Me

Please Forgive Me
Melissa Etheridge

It’s been so long since I’ve touched
So long since I wanted
Then you made me laugh
And my heart opened

I want you to find me charming and wise
I just want you to find me
Somewhere here inside
I barely know you
We’ve been sort of friends
So what if I called you and called you again
What would I tell you
Where would I begin

Please forgive me
If I dont know what to do
It’s an old fire
This familiar desire
But my skin is painfully new

There’s a light in my window
It shines all night long
In the morning my coffee
Is sweet but its strong
I carefully reach out from behind these walls
I’ll take a deep breath and give you a call
Hello how are you
Not much at all

Lost in this hole
That has ripped through my soul
I unlock this secret inside
What should I think
I’ve had too much to drink
As my mind and my body collide

Me

Continuing on with my list of songs and entire CD’s that have moved me over the years, here is another.

I love to listen to Paula Cole’s This Fire (1996) very loudly n the car.  In fact, in the “thanks” section in the little booklet in the CD case, it says, “P.S. to the listener: I recommend playing this record loudly.  I hope it sends you on a journey.”  And it does.  It most certainly does.

One song from that CD that has always felt particularly powerful to me personally is called Me.  I have loved, for years, to sing it at the top of my lungs (and completely ignore the fact that I’m not a singer), and I have rarely gotten through the whole song without choking with emotion at least once.

My favorite verse is the one that begins, “I am walking on the bridge”.  I remember, once, listening to it with someone I knew.  That person said she thought the song was about suicidal feelings, but I never got that at all.  I always felt it was about facing fears and taking a risk for positive change.

I was kind of surprised to realize that this youtube video was just recorded a week ago, on the very day that Good Friend helped me get sound on my computer again, which prompted me to start digging through CD’s all week and re-experience all the music I have loved so much over the years.  It’s all kind of synchronistic.

Paula Cole
Me

I am not the person who is singing
I am the silent one inside
I am not the one who laughs at people’s jokes
I just pacify their egos

I am not my house or my car or my songs
They are only stops along my way
I am like the winter
I’m a dark cold female
With the golden ring of wisdom in my cave

CHORUS:

And it is me who is my enemy
Me who beats me up
Me who makes the monsters
Me who strips my confidence

I am carrying my voice
I am carrying my heart
I am carrying my rhythm
I am carrying my prayers

But you can’t kill my spirit
It’s soaring and it’s strong
And like a mountain
I will go on and on
But when my wings are folded
The brightly colored moth
Blends into the dirt into the ground

Chorus

And it’s me who’s too weak
And it’s me who’s too shy
To ask for the thing I love
And it’s me who’s too weak
And it’s me who’s too shy
To ask for the thing I love
That I love

I am walking on the bridge
I am over the water
And I’m scared as hell
But I know there’s something better
Yes I know there’s something better
Yes I know, yes I know, yes I know

That I love (5 Times Overlapping Chorus)

But it’s me
And it’s me
But it’s me

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